wtf sigg?

wtf sigg?
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not happy with this news about sigg's liner. i specifically purchased sigg bottles because of their assurances of their safety for children. fuck you sigg.

friends make things more bearable

friends make things more bearable
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it's true. one of the good things about even a truly terrible horrible crappier than crap job is the people you meet. funny, nutty, lovely friends you make as you endure the #$!^#$-flinging. yep, good.

the good.

doctoring
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things are a bag of suck around here right now and i've nobody to talk to. so. what's good? ella learned what an exclamation point is but pronounces it "ex-amazin point!" clearly, the child is a riot.

and right now? after a full year of intermittent announcements that she was going to sleep in her own bed tonight and then chickening out every night, telling me "i was jus' jokin' you, mom"? she is right now, asleep in her bed. tonight when i asked if she wanted to sleep in her bed, she lept! as though i was asking whether she wanted to go to big rock candy mountain with toys on top. and she did. she went to sleep. when i turned a light on in the bathroom, thinking the indirect light would comfort her, she hollered "mom! it's too bright! turn off that light!"

she's growing up. my darling child.

does everyone see?

'prise!
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does everyone see her like i do? i wonder. can strangers on the street see the exuberant spirit inside her? the wild, funny, generous little heart that beats so quickly inside her chest? i feel like no one could ever know her like i do. the pure joy inside her. the pure love inside her. could anyone ever delight as much as i do at the peculiar shape of her mouth when she smiles? when she laughs? does anyone marvel at the way her innocent mind works? i don't think so. i feel like a genius because i see it and no one else does. people may admire her and compliment her and appreciate her sweetness. but i am lucky enough to really know her. to know a girl child who is perfect in every way. who grows by leaps and bounds. who laughs with abandon and makes me laugh from my deepest being. the one person i'd rather be with than any other. my daughter.

ella LOVES skating.

four years old is a whole new world. ella has sprouted an inch, a clothes size, and an attitude. hooo, the attitude. it's TFO after TFO around here.

but also with the adorable. her love of skating. i've never seen her love anything so instantly and with such abandon since, well, the wiggles. the first time she skated she was cruising around the rink singing to herself "i'm 'kating... i'm 'kating." a couple of days ago on her new skates (non-rentals) she would spontaneously shout "woohoo!" just from the pure joy of skating.

also - "i teached myself it." this may as well be her catch phrase. everything now is "mom, you want to see my new twick?" and when i ask where she learned that the reply is inevitably "i teached myself to do that twick since i'm four now. i can do so many things now that i'm four."