mewwy cacasmas!

xmas 2006
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not having ella with me for xmas was hard. but xmas with my mom's family is Awesome, and it was really comforting to do all the usual xmas stuff with everybody. playing cards and swearing with granny, playing with my little cousins, eating a roast turkey dinner 3 days in a row, cuz god forbid anybody not have leftovers to eat, so everybody makes their own turkey. it was good to have some quality time with my mom and my brother too.

having my cousins there with their own little ones was really hard, oh. i missed ella. the worst was when i phoned her on xmas morning to say merry xmas. she - the phone hater - got on and said "hi mama. mewwy cacasmas!" and then i pretty much dissolved into tears for a good 15 minutes. but she was happy and having fun, so i'm glad for that.

one of the more fun moments was when i arrived at my auntie g's house for dinner on the 23rd. her husband (v) is the one and only family member that has been a jerk to me since i came out. he has avoided ALL contact with me since then actually. to the point of sitting in the truck at my grandma's house while his wife and kids are inside with the rest of us having a family get together. seriously, sitting in the truck like a petulant child for like, hours. and while n and i were together, n was always very stressed out by the prospect of encountering him and wanted to not go to things. whereas my response is that there is NO way i'm giving up my family and stuff that i love because he's a dink. anyway, so when my aunt invited me to her house i was a little apprehensive about seeing my uncle and was kind of planning to avoid him. but of course, when i arrived, i walked into the living room where 4 of my uncles (1 being v) and my grandma happened to be sitting. they all one by one hopped up from their seats to hug and kiss me until finally richard was the only one still sitting. sigh. so i just said "well v, are you hugging me or not?" and my uncles and my granny laughed uncomfortably. v, the pussy who doesn't have the balls to stand up for his "convictions", said "yep, yep!" and hopped up to hug me. enter rolling of eyes a la me.

sorry for the rambling long story. it probably makes no sense. it's just, my uncle is a dink and i love when i get to be the bigger person.