tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-360778132011-11-16T15:19:53.112-07:00one of two mommieskim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.comBlogger541100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-35352337424893558312011-09-09T00:02:00.000-06:002011-09-09T00:02:49.011-06:00topsat the spray park the other evening ella asked me, "how come girls wear a bathing suit that covers their nipples even though they don't even have breasts, but boys don't?"
well kid. that is a good question. i told her well, you know, grown up men don't wear shirts usually when they're swimming so boys usually dress the same. and because grown up women wear tops to cover their breasts, i guess kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-57018386991470453022011-08-31T12:42:00.001-06:002011-08-31T12:44:09.777-06:00A Vague Idea
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WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope.2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Who can keep track? I cry a lot.3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Yes, except when I am really tired it gets sloopy. Yes, I said sloopy.4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Spicy turkey or whatever.5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes.6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-72262372780584919892008-09-06T23:20:00.002-06:002009-06-20T21:39:38.937-06:00preschool previewpreschool is going to kill me.today was like a little preview. ella had her first gymnastics class. her first class without mama. she wailed. cried. hollered "mooooooooooom" like a cow in labour. sucked her fingers out of total fear and anxiety. wailed. stared bug eyed at me from across the huge gymnasium.and i had to sit in the fucking bleachers and watch. it was not good, people. my heart achedkim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-89105053223153467432008-08-16T19:31:00.001-06:002008-08-16T19:31:27.323-06:00recognize her?and the mini oneOriginally uploaded by kim.mamai flip back and forth between having the opinion that it's getting easier to send ella off to her other mom's house each week, and that it's just not getting easier at all. maybe right now i'm extra sentimental because preschool is looming. my baby will be starting preschool soon, and i'm just feeling sad about it. don't get me wrong. i'm excited forkim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-8011755501069788742008-07-31T22:13:00.001-06:002008-07-31T22:13:16.397-06:00her latest thingher latest thingOriginally uploaded by kim.mamahand-funnel-whispering hints. especially when playing eye-spy. only her hints are the answers. but it's still cuter than a basket of kittens.also now that she's mastering the letter L, she's using it on words that actually do have a Y, not just the words where she pronounced the L as a Y. the other day i yawned and she said "oh, you lawnin' mom?" kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-44523387814455662202008-07-18T14:30:00.001-06:002008-07-18T14:30:40.792-06:00i grew up here.the beach is yay.Originally uploaded by kim.mamajust was looking at this pic i took of ella on our recent visit to christopher lake. i grew up there. that beach there, where ella's lying? i took swimming lessons there as a kid. at 8 am. hot damn it was cold some mornings. i mentioned this on our visit. my mom said it was NOT 8 am. i was all it was too! she said, no, it was maybe 10 am. i said kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-53476380950461298572008-07-15T08:38:00.001-06:002008-07-15T08:38:49.293-06:00saskatchewanwild strawberriesOriginally uploaded by kim.mamabeing home in saskatchewan is totally soothing for me. and watching ella have a blast with my mom is over the top goodness. it was really cool watching her get used to the country too. running wild across the great expanses of grass, dirt, beach, whatever. lying on the ground picking and eating wild strawberries with my mom. experiencing what it's kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-44704907537798924062008-06-25T23:00:00.001-06:002008-06-25T23:00:29.188-06:00summer is good.summer is good.Originally uploaded by kim.mamanothing to say really. other than i love summer. i love thunderstorms. i love watching ella ride her bike and run from playing in the sand to the swings to the monkey bars. i love the spray park. i love swimming pools. i love the lake. i love sunshine and my skin turning bronze whether i like it or not. i love the shade of green that grass and leaves kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-64848691077855920332008-06-23T19:43:00.001-06:002008-06-23T19:43:22.839-06:00to my girlgood mornin'Originally uploaded by kim.mamai wish for you to be happy more than anything. i wish for you to know you are a worthwhile person, that you are a marvel.i hope your struggles are just enough for you to know yourself, but not so much that you suffer. i want your joys to be massive and for you to know how to revel in them and appreciate them.i hope you will care about others enough to kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-22141970042630215312008-06-17T22:06:00.001-06:002008-06-17T22:06:48.604-06:00internet friendsthe real highlight of our dayOriginally uploaded by kim.mamaremember when it was cra-zay-zy! to say you met someone online - whether it was for romance or otherwise? for me it's become more and more the norm. i have this amazing group of internet friends that i usually refer to as "my online mommies" and they are the ultimate support group. even better, they are a sounding board, a friend to chatkim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-46910155800053657722008-06-12T22:21:00.001-06:002008-06-12T22:21:49.616-06:00she's backshe's backOriginally uploaded by kim.mamanothing fills your heart with joy like a child's face lit up like this on sight of you. my daughter's been on holidays with her other mom for the past 10 days. longest fucking 10 days of my life, it sort of seems. the longest we've ever been apart, that's for damn sure. my heart was a sort of constant ache until this moment.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-70467880651234654112008-06-03T10:39:00.002-06:002008-06-03T10:41:37.296-06:00learning to make an inuksuklearning to make an inuksukOriginally uploaded by kim.mamai signed ella up to take part in a sweet little workshop about building an inuksuk at the children's festival. inuksuit (inuksuk plural) were built (and still are i suppose) by inuit people - they are kind of like stone cairns that resemble humans. they were used to help indicate the way for travellers or to pass along messages or to storekim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-69135050717468346022008-05-27T18:37:00.001-06:002008-05-27T18:37:43.681-06:00yook out beyowwwww!!!yook out beyowwwww!!!Originally uploaded by kim.mamathat's what she yells as she takes off on her super duper new disc swing.thanks to lucymay for inspiration and uncle mike for the wooden disc! i think she likes it.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-54459886044422090462008-05-10T20:57:00.001-06:002008-05-10T20:57:34.835-06:00motobikemotobikeOriginally uploaded by kim.mamaella calls her tricycle her motorbike. actually, all bikes are motorbikes. and actual motorbikes are motorcycles. i can't seem to get her to accept the correct terminology. anyway, she kind of sort of finally learned to pedal today! it was exciting. she rode around in circles on the deck for about 20 minutes. then we hit the playground (with a helmet, don't kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-46758456469515190582008-03-05T21:02:00.001-07:002008-03-05T21:02:04.146-07:00TFO TFO Originally uploaded by kim.mama you guys ever hear of the term TKO? i don't know, you hear it here and there. it's a boxing term, which i always thought stood for Total Knock Out... anyhoo in my head i made up a companion term to describe toddlers - the Total Freak Out, TFO. which i never realy used out loud or anything but sometimes would amuse myself in my head with it. TFO.but i kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-66405603752823698122007-12-04T14:58:00.001-07:002007-12-04T14:58:12.357-07:00judgement balance Originally uploaded by kim.mama have you ever been depressed? no. not sad about something. not bored and tired and listless. depressed in the clinical sense.have you ever have a panic attack? no, not a little flurried sense of worry or anxiety. a real, true, debilitating, terrifying, suicidal panic attack?then how come you judge me for taking medication to ease these things?kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-20546770645484839622007-11-22T10:16:00.001-07:002007-11-22T10:16:48.893-07:002 years, 2 days ago you'll never get me to do it on camera, you fools! Originally uploaded by kim.mama two years ago tuesday, ella walked for the first time. real steps, to me. she was cruising along the couch and i was across the room and i said "come here, baby" and she turned, and did! 5 steps, across the living room.weeping.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-45416598496120377072007-10-14T01:34:00.001-06:002007-10-14T01:37:23.392-06:00i carry your heart last of the leaves Originally uploaded by kim.mama i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart) i am never without it (anywherei go you go, my dear; and whatever is doneby only me is your doing, my darling) i fearno fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i wantno world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-67597572815149525212007-09-20T21:36:00.001-06:002007-09-20T21:36:12.294-06:00it's fall it's fall Originally uploaded by kim.mama kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-34523057072656622662007-08-17T12:06:00.001-06:002007-08-17T12:06:02.968-06:00ella-lishis. nona and ella havin' a good time Originally uploaded by kim.mama hmm. what to update. there have been a thousand things lately that i wanted to write down, and i just haven't been keeping up! my mom was in town briefly. she drove her cousin out here because she (the cousin) is undergoing treatment for a brain tumour, and it's affected her vision, so she is unable to drive. anyhoo, they kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-55592055237637195212007-07-09T19:00:00.000-06:002007-07-09T19:01:52.222-06:00just some cutenessthis is just some cuteness that i revel in.just yesterday it started to rain rain rain. ella and i stood at the window and she was singing "old man is pouring!" and insisting that i sing along and sing it "ella is pouring!" ha. so, she seemed so interested in the rain i asked if she wanted to go for a walk in the rain. she immediately remembered her monkey george umbrella so we threw on her bootskim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-90718437305096880722007-06-22T14:54:00.001-06:002007-06-22T14:54:55.568-06:00everything she does is magic picnic Originally uploaded by kim.mama she's on a monster kick today. running suddenly and leaping onto beds and couches, saying "oh! mon-ter!" and telling me she couldn't get her book out from under my bed because the monster under there would bite her hand and stuff. and when i was on the phone she climbed right on top of me saying "cary mon-ter comin'!!!" so i asked her if she was surekim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-26231505293567735252007-06-03T11:12:00.001-06:002007-06-03T11:12:04.701-06:00blissful day straws and connectors Originally uploaded by kim.mama i don't keep up to date enough! i can't figure out a round up but i just feel like remembering a few things. thursday i took ella to the children's festival. she danced to the music, built things, drew with sidewalk chalk, jumped in a jumping castle, rode a train, saw a troll, everything. and honestly? it was one of our best days ever.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-85955540006055650522007-05-26T10:14:00.001-06:002007-05-26T10:14:33.656-06:00negotiations a girl Originally uploaded by kim.mama yesterday, ella and i were playing on our "patio" as we have been most afternoons now that it's nice out. the 2 days prior to that, after lots of fun hide and seeking and spinning and sidewalk chalk and bubbles, she decided to run full tilt down the street away from me. and did not listen when i screamed at her to come back. so. i had to chase her kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-81984383390336199982007-05-10T08:07:00.001-06:002007-05-10T08:07:55.867-06:00funny girl push again mama, i won't fall off! Originally uploaded by kim.mama. the other day we were driving somewhere, and ella had her new cookie monster adorned sippy cup. the cup has a ring of stars on it. she was examining the cup and started to dedicate the stars. dis one a mon-ter.dis one a unca body.dis one a auntie kara.dis one a baby deckin.dis one a doshie.dis one a bennagh.and then kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-76961444151262467262007-04-25T21:31:00.001-06:002007-04-25T21:31:50.815-06:00it's gonna be a bright, bright, sunshiny day i couldn't decide which expression i liked best. Originally uploaded by kim.mama. ella's favourite song for me to sing to her is "i can see clearly now". maybe because it's my favourite song to sing to her. although we have a lot of songs in rotation, this is the one she routinely requests. "which song should mama sing for you?""bight shiny day, mama"it's a bit of an anthem for me. kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-21690314849332263162007-04-15T20:11:00.001-06:002007-04-15T20:11:11.618-06:00friends are good oven mitts for a weally hot oven Originally uploaded by kim.mama. friends send homemade oven mitts for ella to wear while she cooks things for me (mainly eggs) in her weally hot oven.ella is good. she is cute and funny. all the time. nowadays, i've gotten more used to giving her up on weekends to her other mommy. but sometimes it's still hard. it was this friday. hard to watch her hop kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-71477003542687981202007-03-30T16:00:00.001-06:002007-03-30T16:00:51.755-06:00bathy-bath dunk Originally uploaded by kim.mama. ella's been gettin' brave in the bath lately. the other day she dunked her own head under the super tap stream! and another day actually laid down in the water on her back - a first, definitely. let the water get in her ears and everything. it's wonderful to watch her. she's so brave.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-67846968292397805892007-03-28T00:02:00.001-06:002007-03-28T00:02:07.440-06:00curious george concert nervous watcher Originally uploaded by kim.mama. ella and i went to her first live show tonight! it was the cbc kids show, featuring curious george. omg it was cute. and she hugged curious george twice after the show. so freaking sweet. and then she talked to the 2 cbc hosts, kush and joyce, and was all cool, and said "i hugged the monkey!" so proud. (also, proud mama moment when the kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-33061965104751653652007-03-11T21:06:00.001-06:002007-03-11T21:06:00.583-06:00i have a nephew! Mom and Declan Originally uploaded by Brody & Tara. okay? he's perfect. my brother's marvellous wife finally made it thru the pregnancy journey. he's out. and he's spectacular. ella and i are going to see him tomorrow. zoom, zoom.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-51810239625523359162007-02-28T09:06:00.000-07:002007-02-28T09:08:57.103-07:00doo doo deein my effort to write down the cute stuff ella does, here's another.she pretty much daily requests her bear dvd, but she prounounces it "bear doo doo dee".kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-66983608040302241282007-02-26T20:53:00.000-07:002007-02-26T21:00:25.515-07:00cuteness round upseptember 6out of the blue ella started:1) praising mama for doing things she normally gets praise for - i.e. pressing the garage door opener button. "you did it, mama!!!"2) announcing "poop!" with every fart and poop she makes. only, she pronounces it "doop"december 4today, i was driving and ella was singing away and i was just hearing doo doo la la, but suddenly i recognized it - "santa claus kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-56890462288694681742007-02-17T19:04:00.000-07:002007-02-21T18:56:36.992-07:00i miss her.it's lonely without my ella sometimes. i miss having a family. a home with a family in it.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-84033347135083573502007-01-29T13:16:00.000-07:002007-01-29T13:33:42.385-07:00whisper whisperella's trying to go to sleep right now. a nap, i mean. i can hear her whispering to her "buddies", as she likes to call her stuffed animals. once in a while it gets louder, then back to a whisper. i peeked in a few minutes ago, she had a book on her chest and was "reading." damn that's cute.lately there have been so many things i've wanted to remember to write down for her. the way she has kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-55603990602031915172007-01-22T12:11:00.000-07:002007-01-22T12:28:44.269-07:00family.ella fell in love with my brother, her uncle brody, this weekend. it was wonderful.it was also wonderful to see my brother with her. when she was first born, he was of course, loving and and sweet, but like so many men, not entirely comfortable. but this weekend, he seemed right at home with ella tucked under his arm on the couch and playing around the house.ya. loved it. not to leave out nona, kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-19193652645670554352007-01-14T15:14:00.000-07:002007-01-14T15:18:18.581-07:00ella's party made me so sad today. hanging out at n's house. watching her interact with n's family. see, she has this whole other part of her life. that i'm not a part of. that i don't even know anything about. she's my 2 year old baby. i should know EVERYTHING about her. it breaks my heart.i don't even know what else to say.kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-51677817735335155052007-01-11T11:36:00.000-07:002007-01-11T14:26:51.351-07:00social butterfliesfor a minute there ella and i were social butterflies. we had amanda and brennagh over and the girls played like crazy. it was quite adorable. we ordered in indian food and stuffed ourselves. there was a lot of cuteness going on. the girls took a bath and ella demonstrated her dubdubdub (scrub scrub scrub) technique to amanda, then proceeded to scrub brennagh's back. ay. the cute. the next day kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-34023590532282619152007-01-01T12:56:00.000-07:002007-01-01T13:01:25.065-07:00a year in review?should i do a review of this year? i sort of wish i could have a do-over. started the year by starting marriage counselling. then selling our house and buying a cheaper one to try and resolve some finance issues. then getting a divorce. then moving into an apartment.but maybe i should do a different review. this year my anxiety and depression hit me in ways i didn't know how to handle. i suppose kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1167427726086375502006-12-29T14:27:00.000-07:002006-12-29T14:28:46.096-07:00the internet.the madness on flickr right now with EVERYONE switching to private, is making me wonder... i mean, what the HELL? i'm sad because flickr has been this huge huge inspiration and learning place for me. like, really important stuff. but it seems everyone's having really big problems with stealing. and my reaction to it all in general is not to worry about it.but with the recent mad rush into privacykim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1167275286809040732006-12-27T20:07:00.000-07:002006-12-27T20:08:06.816-07:00mewwy cacasmas! xmas 2006 Originally uploaded by kim.mama. not having ella with me for xmas was hard. but xmas with my mom's family is Awesome, and it was really comforting to do all the usual xmas stuff with everybody. playing cards and swearing with granny, playing with my little cousins, eating a roast turkey dinner 3 days in a row, cuz god forbid anybody not have leftovers to eat, so everybody makes kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1166832976879362782006-12-22T17:10:00.000-07:002006-12-22T17:16:16.886-07:00holiday spiriti just hugged and kissed my baby goodbye. i won't be seeing her until after xmas. and then i burst into tears.i suddenly feel like all i post about is calamity. the truth is, things have been better lately. i don't feel as squished under the weight of anxiety/depression and i don't feel as pressured by outside forces. the house being sold is a huge weight off. etc. not that i feel this way every kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1162146756892355512006-10-29T11:27:00.000-07:002006-10-29T11:33:29.726-07:00lather, rinse, repeatboy am i on a roller coaster these days. one minute, i'm feeling okay. interactions with n have been pleasant, reasonable. i feel like a normal person, capable of normal thingsand then. hoo boy. then the anxiety hits. and i feel like nothing is ever going to work out. i'll never find a place to live. i'll never find a job and keep it. i'll never be able to handle being divorced and having to dealkim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1161890790841099112006-10-26T13:09:00.000-06:002006-10-26T13:46:49.810-06:00my imaginary friendsthursday was a hard day. i watched my soon-to-be-ex-wife get ready for work and play with our daughter and realized it was the last time. the last time we'd be all together. my family.then friday i flew to boston to meet my imaginary friends. almost two years now, i've been a part of an amazing little community of online mommies. there was something overwhelming, surreal, and amazingly kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1161212741167571202006-10-18T16:57:00.000-06:002006-10-18T17:05:41.173-06:00i know who you arewhat do we do in life without our friends and family? i often think of this.today my oldest friend called to check in with me. how i'm coping thru the divorce. and i broke down a little on her. cuz today has been a really bad day. wow. and she dared to ask "what happenned?" as i tried to explain using a little objectivity, trying not to delve into the shit where we reside right now, because wherekim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1161116835571433882006-10-17T14:17:00.000-06:002006-10-17T14:27:15.576-06:00things that are goodwhoa. rereading my opening post ... boy was i depressed that day. so. here's what's good in my life.ella is a healthy, wonderful child who cheers me up more than anything else in the world.we (ella and i) are going to boston this weekend to attend a party my online mommy peeps are throwing. yah!my friends rock. (hi doug, dorrie, and the rest of you.)my family rocks. (mom, brody, tara, regan, kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36077813.post-1160937454558057852006-10-15T12:28:00.000-06:002006-10-15T12:44:58.450-06:00etta james, at lasti heard etta james' at last on the radio in the car this morning. and i broke down. sobbing. bawling. i cried and cried all the way home. and then some more on the couch when i walked in the door.i'm sad. my marriage is over. i need a new life plan.and i really thought i was past the crying stage. i really did. maybe it's my period, or i don't know what. but today, i can't seem to keep the tears kim doyle thorsenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14061927668766923793noreply@blogger.com0